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「眼球の人」（vimeo）
「透明な私」（vimeo）
「イデア」（vimeo）
「透明な世界」（vimeo）
「スキゾフレニア」（vimeo）
個展「花の起源」
「花の起源」（vimeo）
「the second pregnancy〜第2の妊娠〜」
「『立方体型の透明便器に腰掛けた私』と『授乳中の戸惑い』」
個展「yuRi=paRadox〜眠りは覚醒である〜」
「yuRi=paRadox〜眠りは覚醒である〜」（vimeo）
「L'INTERDIT」
「ランテルディ II」（vimeo）
「The Miracle」（vimeo）
「Ｍに捧ぐ」（vimeo）
「私が肉を食べない理由　I」（vimeo）
「聖譚曲（オラトリオ）」

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2023

”The Eyeball Person”（ video / 12min / 2023 ）



[ CAST ]
Yuri MURAOKA
Nonoho SUZUKI
Nemu SUZUKI
Hana SUZUKI
Kurumi, the cat
[ STAFF ]
A Poem by Yuri MURAOKA
Special Thanks to Nonoho SUZUKI & IMAGICA
English Subtitles by Annie IWASAKI
Subtitles produced by AURA
[ Music ]
Beethoven / Piano Sonata No. 14 "Moonlight"
(Arthur Rubinstein, piano / Rec. in 1962 )
Lange / Blumenlied (Flower Song) Op.39
(Hana SUZUKI, piano）

[ OUTLINE ]
This film is about gazes and goodbyes.
An attempt to weave images with words and to weave a poem with images.
I realize that living is suffering to see that Nemu, the one of my daughters,
squirms with the struggle and sunflowers squirm to try to bloom.





Poem “The Eyeball Person” :
https://beachwind-lib.net/?p=36165

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2020

”Transparent, I am.”（ video / 11min / 2020 ）



[ STAFF ]
A Poem & Drawings by Yuri Muraoka
Illustrations by Nemu Suzuki
Special thanks to Nonoho Suzuki & Hana Suzuki
[ Music ]
Chopin / Etude in C Minor, Op.10 No.12 "Revolutionary"

[ OUTLINE ]
In the year of 2020 when the world was forced to “change”,
I wanted to confirm what changed and what did not change in me
and wrote a poem “Transparent, I am.”.
This film is based on it.
The white mask I wore became the screen projected my past.
My family are sometimes hurt and suffer,
but support me who suffers from schizophrenia.
Nonoho, Yuri, Nemu and Hana.
The four of us live today to the fullest
while looking for the answer to “Who are we?”

Poem “Transparent, I am.” :
https://beachwind-lib.net/?p=25745

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2019

”IDEA”（ video / 17min / 2019 ）



[ STAFF ]
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Edited by Yuri Muraoka
Cooperation by Nonoho Suzuki
[ Music ]
Wagner / Siegfried-Idyll
( Cond.by W. .Furtwangler / Rec. in 1949 )

[ OUTLINE ]
The relationships which could have been everlasting will end sometime.
The time when I hold loved ones in my arms.
The time when I fall asleep feeling the breathing of warm living things.
We realize that there are wishes that never come true in this world.
The memories of a broken family, and a breaking family.
This film is about the days of our lives with a dying cat
who has a hard time breathing due to incurable diseases.

This work was shot on digital (mobile phone) for my first time
not on film.

[ Installation ver.＠Spiral（2019）]



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2018-2019

"Transparent, the world is."（ 16mm>video / 7min / 2018-2019 ）



[ CAST ]
Yuri Muraoka , Nemu Suzuki , Hana Suzuki
[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Animation by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Costumes by Yoko Takeuchi , Mai Tsujimoto
Cooperation by Nonoho Suzuki
[ Music ]
Mendelssohn / Elias, Op.70
( Cond.by W.Sawallisch / Rec. in 1968 )

[ OUTLINE ]
The portrait of me and my daughters which depicts the relationship
between “individual's personalities” and “the world / the society” as of 2018.
This is the story about an intense dichotomy inside / outside of me.
It goes back and forth between “the personality” and “the world / the society”,
my daughters become social / universal existences from personal existences.
The definition of “red” extends to “life”
and appears as a powerless and religious Daruma doll which loses its arms and legs.
“White” and “black” rise above a simple dichotomy
and start to possess the concept of “gray”.
And the world which is made of a mix of various colors becomes “transparent”.
If you keep sticking to “the personality”, it changes to “the world”.
This is my destination throughout my creative activities and shows what the world is.





[ Installation ver.＠Spiral（2018）]



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2016

"Schizophrenia”（ 16mm>video / 10min / 2016 ）



[ CAST ]
Yuri Muraoka , Nemu Suzuki , Hana Suzuki
[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Cooperations by Nonoho Suzuki , Shirouyasu Suzuki
[ Music ]
(Chap.1)
Alkan / The song of the mad woman on the sea shore
( Ayano Ushiroda , piano / Rec. in 2010 )
Sibelius / The Swan of Tuonela
( Cond.by M.Sargent / Rec. in 1961 )
(Chap.2)
Tchaikovsky / Swan Lake, Op.20
( Cond.by E.Ansermet / Rec. in 1959 )

[ OUTLINE ]
Self-portrait conducted in my 7th year of treatment for schizophrenia.
An obsession by the name of “odd-numbers” torments me in daily life.
(Chap.1 ”The odd numbers”)
A death sentence was being pronounced.
With the sound of the scaffold coming down,
the fear of self-destruction that “the reality” collapses into pieces from my foot.
(Chap.2 ”Transparent,I am.”)

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
Do I really exist here?
Am I the one who is typing on the keyboard now?
Does this keyboard really exist here?
Does this chair really exist here?
Does this floor really exist here?
My five senses become transparent in a twinkling.

To throw myself into creative activities and to keep them going on.
These are the most important things for me as an artist,
and others are not important.
Recently, I especially think so.

No,that is not true. More important things other than that:
Nemu and Hana.
I am a mother of them.
My beloved daughters.
I have to continue to live. Transparent,Iam.














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2008

2008年12月19日（金）〜22日（月）
新宿眼科画廊　スペースO

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”Origin of flowers" ( 16mm / 7min / 2008 )


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[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Animation by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Cooperations by Nonoho Suzuki , Miwa Shirao , Shirouyasu Suzuki
[ Music ]
Tchaikovsky / Waltz of the Flowers ( from “The Nutcracker, Suites Op.71a” )
( Cond.by A.Toscanini / Rec. in 1951 )

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
This film is dedicated to my 1-year-old daughter Hana/花(which means “flowers”)
and my 3-year-old daughter Nemu/眠(which means “sleep”) who learns Hiragana recently.
The reason why I created this film
is that I wanted to show them “the magic” that their favorite Teddy bear can move.





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“the second pregnancy”( 91.4*117.4(cm), 81*66(cm) / 2008 )
( Material : photo panels, wooden frames, broken glasses )


（裏面 / the back ）

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
The 2nd of “the front and the back of the two-dimensional plane of the shapes” series

( the right of the front )
Me, became pregnant with the second child.
The umbilical cord out of my vagina is connected with myself of the adolescence.
I’ve got pregnant with myself.
( the left of the front )
Me, impersonating a pregnant boy.
The boy who is made of the pieces of the blue sky
is a symbol of myself of the adolescence.
A bird which is the symbol of the adolescence is no longer there.
The black and white umbilical cord
out of the boy’s vagina is connected with the current me.
( the right of the back )
Me, wearing a white wedding dress in the last month of pregnancy.
The yellow-green semen dyes a part of the white dress.
The yellow-green is a symbolic color of my husband.
( the left of the back )
Me, impersonating a pregnant boy.
The boy’s shirt has been red with the blood of someone.










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2007

“me, sitting on the cubic transparent toilet " and “confused while suckling”
( 132*81.7(cm) / Material : a photo panel, a wooden frame / 2007 )

（裏面 / the back ）

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
Expressed my “aversion to sex”, “sexual urge” and “suffering of suckling caused by them”
using the front and the back of planer shapes.
The costume I wear is the symbol of “the sky-blue room”
where I spent my chaotic adolescent term and is also my present family life.






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2006

2006年12月9日（土）〜25日（月）
せんだいメディアテーク5階ギャラリー3300a

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“yuRi=paRadox〜sleep is equal to awake 〜" ( 16mm / 30min / 2006 )


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[ CAST ]
Yuri Muraoka ( 1 person performing 5 roles )
[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Costumes by Yoko Takeuchi
Cooperations
by Nonoho Suzuki , Nemu Suzuki , Miwa Shirao , Shirouyasu Suzuki , Sakumi Hagiwara etc.
Finance Support by Regional Culture Award Tax Accountant’s Fund
[ Music ]
(Chap.1)
R.Strauss / When Falling Asleep
( from “Four Last Songs” )
( Cond.by W.Furtwangler / Rec. in 1950 )
(Chap.2)
Tartini / Sonata “Il Trillo del Diavolo”
( A.Grumiaux , violin / Rec. in 1956 )
(Chap.3)
Bingen / O Euchari , in leta via
( Mayumi Nakai , Soprano / Rec. by Tetsuo Yamada, Ayano Ushiroda at Fujimigaoka Church in 2006 )
(Chap.4,5)
Berlioz / Symphonie fantastique, Op.14
( Cond.by P.Monteux / Rec. in 1950 )

[ OUTLINE ]
( Chap.1 )
Yuri’s daily life after her marriage and building a home.
She cleans, does the laundry, cooks and does household bookkeeping.
In the repeated daily life, suddenly the snowscape appeared in front of her,
and the girl who wears a red coat crouched there.
Her eyes were stuck by nails and hurt.
In this chapter, I refer to the sleep as “rest”, my consideration to “reality
and the meaning of my daughter’s name “眠(Nemu)”(the origin of the character of “眠”).
( Chap.2 )
Yuri lays her weary body. She gazes at three objects placed in the room.
In time, one object’s base disappears and another object floats in the air.
To her who is scared, “a messenger of Death” who wears black and white checkered clothes has come.
In this chapter, I refer to my breaking mental condition ,
“the reality like a nightmare” and death of my pet dog.
( Chap.3 )
A boat floating on the lake of yellow-green semen. Pregnant Yuri dozes on the boat.
She calls a baby inside her on the black rotary-dial phone and she gets on the birthing bed soon.
On the next birthing bed, her dying mother gives birth to Yuri.
Yuri gives birth to Nemu. Newborn Nemu’s eyes were stuck by nails.
In this chapter, I refer to my pregnancy/birth, Yuri’s/Nemu’s secrets of birth
(including the disappearance of embryo in the multiple pregnancy)
and what is meant by giving birth to Nemu in this world.
( Chap.4 )
In this chapter, I refer to the sleep as “awake” and something awaken newly inside of me
by giving a birth to Nemu. There are two kinds of “reality”.
One “reality” sticks our eyes with nails and spills blood, the other is recognized under our “awake”.
“Sleep” is an overture of “awake”, and that is one of the reasons why I named my Daughter “眠/Nemu”
which means “sleep” in the hope of “awake”.
( Chap.5 )
The proof of “yuRi=paRadox”. Can’t stop odd doodles. Can’t stop the march of odd numbers.
Can’t stop the march of short old man who wears black and white diced clothes.
Yuri will be split into white Yuri and black Yuri soon. The marriage of white Yuri and black Yuri.
Hand in hand, they fly away to the world beyond “sex” and ”reality”.










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2004

［作品解説］「夫の誕生日プレゼントに」と考えて作った作品です。
（余談ですが、夫と私は誕生日が同じなのです。）「L'INTERDIT」とは
仏語で「禁止」という意味で、デザイナーのジバンシーが、敬愛するＡ・
ヘップバーンに自作の香水を贈る際に「この香水はオードリー以外の人
間に使わせない」という意味を込めて、その香水を「L'INTERDIT」と名
付けた…というロマンティックな逸話を以前何かで読んだことがあって、
それ以来「いつか自分も愛する人に贈る作品を作ったら、作品のタイト
ルをL'INTERDITにしよう」と決めていました。この作品は「夫と私の２
人だけが知る秘密」のようなものです。完成が前後していますが、構想
自体は「ランテルディ II」より前に固まっていて、その後１年程かけて
ゆっくりと素材を撮影しました。

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2003

“L’INTERDIT II” ( 16mm / 7min / 2003 )


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[ CAST ]
Yuri Muraoka ( 1 person performing 5 roles )
[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Animation by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka , Nonoho Suzuki
Costumes by Yoko Takeuchi
Cooperations by Miwa Shirao , Shirouyasu Suzuki , Nonoho Suzuki , Ayano Ushiroda
[ Music ]
Berlioz / Symphonie fantastique, Op.14
( Cond.by P.Monteux / Rec. in 1950 )

[ OUTLINE ]
A canvas painted in black and a canvas painted in vivid yellow-green.
They love each other. Grating bone structure. Melting paints.
This is a work that draws their love and a virginity loss from aspects of the black canvas.

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
The continuation of “L’INTERDIT”(2004).
The black canvas is my incarnation.
When the black canvas was stared by the vivid yellow-green canvas and stared back,
she found the perfectly unknown, new and original feeling
which was inexpressible by using the words of “sadness” or “happiness”.
She loves him and sometimes lusts for him.
Her desire for being beside him and having entire possession of him grows,
however she knows those wishes would never come true.







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”The Miracle” ( 16mm / 18min / 2003 )


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[ CAST ]
Yuri Muraoka ( 1 person performing 22 roles )
[ STAFF ]
Art Production by Yuri Muraoka
Cinematography by Yuri Muraoaka
Special Effects by Yasuhiro Kato , Toru Murano , Miho Ino
Costumes by Yoko Takeuchi
Cooperations by Miwa Shirao , Shirouyasu Suzuki , Nonoho Suzuki
[ Music ]
Beethoven / Symphony No.9, ”Choral”
( Cond.by W.Furtwangler / Rec. in 1951 )
The Miracle / QUEEN (1989)

[ OUTLINE ]
Yuri raised two little birds whose names were Mystic and Surrealistic,
One day, Surrealistic was dead.
This film is mainly about YURI who wishes SURREALISTIC would come to life again
and God Horus who holds a ritual for the revival.
This film challenges every existing concept such as “Living things will die certainly someday,”
and depicts the miraculous fusion of YURI, MYSTIC and SURREALISTIC
after overcoming barriers of species and sex with fantastical images and beautiful colors.

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
“SYMPHONY No.9” resounded by my side when Surrealistic of the little bird
that I kept died in December, 2001.
I made this work to revive Surrealistic and to kill the existence of TIME by my own hands.
Moreover, this work was the first attempt to visualize my core ”yuRi=paRadox“.
The colors of white, black, red and blue (1 red woman=3 blue men)
are a part of the basic elements that compose the core of “yuRi=paRadox”.



















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2002

［作品解説］
３作品とも、研究所在籍時に課題作品として制作したものです。
私は、研究所に入るまで、カメラと名のつくものに一切縁が無かったので、
この３作品を作りながらカメラの仕組みを覚え、使い方等を体得していきました。

「聖譚曲」は異なる色と色の戦いをテーマにした作品で、
私の宗教観が色濃く反映されたものなのですが、
技術力等が全く追い付いていず、当初の構想の数％も形になりませんでした。
いつか必ず作り直したい作品です。
また、この作品から一貫して現在の制作スタイルで制作しています。
「私が〜」は、私が十代半ばから肉食を辞めている理由（色々あります）のいくつかを描いたもので、
主に「直立二足歩行の犬に、首を縄で括られ引き回される人間」「セックス」をテーマにしています。
「Ｍに〜」は、私の愛する美しい小鳥Mysticに捧げた作品です。
私の魂は人間の殻を破り、永遠の時間の中でＭと交じり合います。

2002年当時の私は、前年暮れに死んだ、私の愛する美しい小鳥Surrealistic
を生き返らせることで頭の中がいっぱいで、それがこの３作品の中にも随所に現れています。
例えば「聖譚曲」と「Ｍに〜」で私は、ウジャト（古代エジプトの死者の護り神、ホルスの魔法の眼）
をコンセプトにしたメイクで出演しています。
このウジャト（ホルス）は「The Miracle」でも重要なキャラクターとして位置付けられています。

[ DIRECTOR‘S STATEMENT ]
This film is about the reason why I haven’t eaten meat since I was in middle teenage.
The themes are “the person who has tied up with a rope
and　dragged by a dog walking with two legs,
the position of the person and a dog being swapped” and ”sex”.
（“The reason why I do not eat meat I “ ( 8mm / 5min / 2002 ) ( Artist Study )）
"M" is an initial of my little bird "Mystic".
"Dedicated to M" is a work that was dedicated to my dear little bird.
I will break the shell of the human soul.
I have a sexual relationship with "M" in the time of eternity.
(”Dedicated to M" ( 8mm / 9min / 2002 ) ( Artist Study ))

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